That morning, Fifth Avenue looked like it had been scrubbed clean by winter.
The sky was the color of dirty pearl,
and the wind slid between buildings like it knew exactly where your skin was exposed.
It found the gap at my collar.
It wormed under the hem of my jacket.
It made my eyes water before
I’d even reached the revolving doors of our office building.
I told myself I should have worn thicker socks.
I told myself I’d order a better coat when my bonus came through.
I told myself a lot of small,
practical things,
the kind you repeat when you’re trying
to pretend you’re not already tired.
